Fire...

A fire is built out of nothing; but as it burns, it grows, it lives, it breathes, it even seems to yearn for freedom. It seems to seek its vengeance on anything that sought to be excused from destruction. As the embers glow, the fire destroys what it lives on, and all that's left in memory are ashes. It feels like a life that existed, is there no more. Or, rather, the soul has drifted away. It will surface again, when called upon. It will breathe again, and destroy more as it yearns, yet again, to grow. But, ironically, the more it destroys, the more it 'kills' itself. What a unique living form: it grows for self-destruction!

And this destruction is not silent-it is celebrated with light and sound...And a warm welcome to anyone who wishes to witness this celebrated destruction.

Family

What is it about my family that makes them love me so much? Why do they have this inherent need to love and protect me from any remote danger? And they will do so at any cost and no matter what may happen. What makes them become this impregnable wall that must be faced for anyone to come close to harming me? I guess the bonds of family are far too deep to have a reason.

It just happens. I love my family to death. I can say that I am not a violent person, but I can be, if someone were to even utter something against them. I know there are a million things that annoy me about them, but I know that I love them all the same, just as they are. Perhaps, thats what being a family is all about. I guess this line that I read somewhere sums up my thoughts:

“We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly”

Spiritual Me?

Its been 21 years on planet earth, and I have never felt the need to visit a temple or pray regularly, or be spiritual in any way.

So why is it, that suddenly, I feel this inherent need to remember the Lord ever so often? For the first time in my life, I have this wish to pray every morning, go to a temple sometimes, and just generally make the Lord a part of my daily routine.

What has made me change so much? From the girl who didnt so much as enter a religious place because she didnt believe in them, to the girl who wants to visit a temple to pray...

I cant say that there has been no life-changing event recently, because there has. I visited Dwarka and Somnath last year, and that was quite a memorable experience. I begun my post graduation and have been living alone in a hostel for some time, away from my parents for the first time in my life. I have found close friends in my new social circle, and that too, after 3 years of being an outsider.

Maybe I feel grateful to the Lord for giving me an opportunity to do a post graduation and find new friends, or perhaps, I am seeking a friend who will be there whenever I need someone, and have no terms or conditions for providing me with the comfort that only a close friend or family member can provide.

Whatever the reason, I know that I am a happier person, and more at peace with myself knowing that the Lord is a part of my life.